I am sometimes counting down my life time. I feel like, it's near. so close. It is not a happy one, nor sad. It's plain. Well, that's not the matter.
What becomes hard for me is I don't even prepare for it. I have not given something to my society, I have not even been their pride. I didn't forget that. I was just too busy with those shity things.
as you know, I will never forget my words. so I promise my deepest heart, I promise to my future, I promise to my future life, there in God's peace house, to be something, to be their pride.
or you can kill me, ignore me, hurting me, do what you want to me.