I've been keeping a super nervous feeling about something. It's been the hardest options in my life so far. The choice I did take is giving be me both happiness and its contrary.

On the other side I felt way too happy, and sad as well. I don't know how to it is going to end. Perhaps death, but it might be not.

What I'm doing now is keeping it on the track and praying a lot. I know He knows the answer. He will lead me to the story that everybody wouldn't understand its beauty.

And if the time has come, I want myself not to regret it and thank the Almighty God for giving me chances to learn the Joy of Life.